Saying Goodbye to Strasbourg Again

I didn’t plan to write anything tonight, but this is what came out while wandering the streets and thinking about the end of another chapter here. It isn’t polished. It isn’t edited. It’s just honest.

I wish I didn’t have to leave Strasbourg again. This city has become a mirror, a teacher, and a kind of home. It has shown me who I am and who I am allowed to be. It taught me to be brave. It taught me to embrace alone time without fear. It helped me let go of the expectations society placed on me and lean into my passions without guilt. I arrived feeling uncertain and often alone. I now move through the city with a sense of belonging and acceptance that I didn’t know was possible.

Here I learned that presence is enough. That life doesn’t need to be chased or rushed. That uncertainty isn’t something to fear but something to live within. Strasbourg taught me to follow what calls me today and trust that it is enough. 

One of the strangest and most beautiful things is how often strangers stop me in the street. It rarely happens in France, yet it happens to me almost daily. People tell me I have a friendly face or a welcoming aura. I never heard things like that back home. It made me realize that it is okay to enjoy simply being alive. That giving every bit of myself to work is not what creates a meaningful life. Happiness comes from culture, connection, rhythm, and the quiet magic of everyday life. Here each step feels intentional. Each day feels like a beginning.

Strasbourg awakened parts of me I didn’t know were asleep. The emphasis on art and culture made me feel part of something bigger. I learned how much I love the slow life and how deeply I care about the earth. I learned that it is possible to live gently without being criticized for it. I discovered new hobbies and felt encouraged to try everything. I became less afraid of the world. I tried foods I would have refused five years ago. I learned how my choices shape the spaces around me.

This place taught me that the path I never walked is still there, waiting. It taught me how to integrate into a culture while still being the outsider, and how that outsider status can feel okay, even welcomed. It taught me the importance of communication and how powerful it can be. It taught me that mistakes are part of being human and that avoiding them only limits your life. It taught me the value of community, respect, presence, and the removal of distractions.

It may sound like a broken record every six months, but Strasbourg gave me the breath I was missing. Before, I felt suffocated. Here, I found room to breathe again.

Maybe the magic comes from its history as a free Roman city. Maybe it comes from its international character and its place in the European Union. Maybe it comes from its long struggle between two nations and its repeated loss of identity. Whatever the reason, this city has shaped me in a way no other place has. The lessons I’ve learned here feel singular. Irreplaceable.

As I reflect on my time here, I realize that my own duality mirrors the duality of this city. I want to be independent, yet part of something greater. I want freedom, yet community. I want movement, yet belonging. Here, those desires make sense. Here, they are encouraged.

There is a quiet magic in Strasbourg. A magic that helped me breathe, helped me soften, helped me come back to myself. I don’t know if I could have found it anywhere else. At least not like this.

Leaving never gets easier. But every time I go, I take more of this city with me. Thank you, Strasbourg, for the lessons, the people, the quiet moments, and the breath I didn’t know I needed.

 

Letters Along the Road

Four letters written from the road, to the voices that taught me how to live, question, and begin again.

To Montaigne,

I think you would understand this restlessness. You wrote to study yourself, to observe what it means to be human. I find myself doing the same, though I am less certain of what I am searching for. Perhaps it is not truth but tenderness, the willingness to sit with questions that never resolve. You said, “Que sais-je?” What do I know? Some days, not much at all. But in the act of asking, I feel alive.

Walking alone through Alsace, I often think of your tower and your essays written among books and silence. My silence is made of footsteps, of distant church bells, of the quiet between languages. You searched within to understand the world. I seem to search the world to understand myself. Perhaps it is the same thing.

To Camus,

I read you beneath a grey Alsatian sky, the vineyards stripped bare after harvest. You wrote that life is absurd, that we must imagine Sisyphus happy. I wonder if happiness is too big a word. Maybe it is enough simply to be awake. Some mornings I sit by the river and feel the absurdity you spoke of, this beautiful world that promises nothing. Yet I am still drawn to it, still wanting to praise it.

You found rebellion in living fully, even knowing that everything passes. I think of that often. I do not want to conquer meaning, only to honor the moment I am in. There is defiance in gentleness, in choosing to keep the heart open even when it hurts.

To Simone de Beauvoir,

You taught that freedom means nothing if it is not shared. I hold on to that. Guiding others through France, I watch them awaken to the world, to themselves, and I see how travel becomes a mirror for freedom. It reminds us that we belong not to one place but to one another.

You wrote with courage and clarity, but also with tenderness. I want to live that way. I want to be strong without closing, to love without losing myself. There is still so much I am unlearning.

To Simone Veil,

Yours is the voice that humbles me most. You carried dignity through horror and still chose life, compassion, and service. When I visited the memorials in Alsace, I thought of you. You never surrendered your faith in humanity, even when the world gave you every reason to.

I often wonder what courage really means. You showed that it can be quiet. It can mean simply continuing, holding onto decency when it would be easier to harden. I am still learning what that looks like in my own life.

And to all of you,

You have been companions on this long road. You remind me that meaning is not a destination but a practice, something shaped in how we live, love, and bear witness. I am still learning to be at peace with not knowing. Perhaps that is the truest beginning.

Travel keeps bringing me back to the same questions: how to live, how to love, how to remain soft in a world that is often unkind. These questions follow me from one place to another, yet they no longer demand answers. I have begun to see that meaning hides in the ordinary, in footsteps through damp leaves and the breath drawn before a new word in a foreign tongue. It is in the simple things, the weight of light on water, the scent of rain on old stone, that I remember why I chose to begin again.

Perhaps all I am meant to do is observe, the sky changing, the heart softening, the moment passing. The more I read you, the more I understand that the search for meaning is really the search for gentleness within ourselves, and that gentleness, once found, is what makes this life feel like home.