Letters Along the Road

Four letters written from the road, to the voices that taught me how to live, question, and begin again.

To Montaigne,

I think you would understand this restlessness. You wrote to study yourself, to observe what it means to be human. I find myself doing the same, though I am less certain of what I am searching for. Perhaps it is not truth but tenderness, the willingness to sit with questions that never resolve. You said, “Que sais-je?” What do I know? Some days, not much at all. But in the act of asking, I feel alive.

Walking alone through Alsace, I often think of your tower and your essays written among books and silence. My silence is made of footsteps, of distant church bells, of the quiet between languages. You searched within to understand the world. I seem to search the world to understand myself. Perhaps it is the same thing.

To Camus,

I read you beneath a grey Alsatian sky, the vineyards stripped bare after harvest. You wrote that life is absurd, that we must imagine Sisyphus happy. I wonder if happiness is too big a word. Maybe it is enough simply to be awake. Some mornings I sit by the river and feel the absurdity you spoke of, this beautiful world that promises nothing. Yet I am still drawn to it, still wanting to praise it.

You found rebellion in living fully, even knowing that everything passes. I think of that often. I do not want to conquer meaning, only to honor the moment I am in. There is defiance in gentleness, in choosing to keep the heart open even when it hurts.

To Simone de Beauvoir,

You taught that freedom means nothing if it is not shared. I hold on to that. Guiding others through France, I watch them awaken to the world, to themselves, and I see how travel becomes a mirror for freedom. It reminds us that we belong not to one place but to one another.

You wrote with courage and clarity, but also with tenderness. I want to live that way. I want to be strong without closing, to love without losing myself. There is still so much I am unlearning.

To Simone Veil,

Yours is the voice that humbles me most. You carried dignity through horror and still chose life, compassion, and service. When I visited the memorials in Alsace, I thought of you. You never surrendered your faith in humanity, even when the world gave you every reason to.

I often wonder what courage really means. You showed that it can be quiet. It can mean simply continuing, holding onto decency when it would be easier to harden. I am still learning what that looks like in my own life.

And to all of you,

You have been companions on this long road. You remind me that meaning is not a destination but a practice, something shaped in how we live, love, and bear witness. I am still learning to be at peace with not knowing. Perhaps that is the truest beginning.

Travel keeps bringing me back to the same questions: how to live, how to love, how to remain soft in a world that is often unkind. These questions follow me from one place to another, yet they no longer demand answers. I have begun to see that meaning hides in the ordinary, in footsteps through damp leaves and the breath drawn before a new word in a foreign tongue. It is in the simple things, the weight of light on water, the scent of rain on old stone, that I remember why I chose to begin again.

Perhaps all I am meant to do is observe, the sky changing, the heart softening, the moment passing. The more I read you, the more I understand that the search for meaning is really the search for gentleness within ourselves, and that gentleness, once found, is what makes this life feel like home.

Metz: A Place I Almost Lived

Metz came into my life early, on my second trip to France, when everything still felt new and full of possibility. We drove there, curious to see a city that seemed to balance history with a youthful pulse. From the moment I arrived, I felt something familiar in it. Metz had the kind of energy that lives quietly between the old and the new. Its streets were alive with students from the art college, and there was a creative rhythm in the air that made me want to stay longer.

The cathedral was what captured me first. Its stained glass felt alive, each panel telling its own story in color and light. I remember standing there, completely still, trying to take in the scale of it. The city itself held that same duality, deeply rooted in history yet forward-looking, with both French and German influences woven into its walls.

Metz seemed like the perfect balance. Not too big, not too small. Close to nature, full of art, and connected to the world through its high speed trains and nearby borders. It was the kind of place where I thought I could be inspired, where the idea of staying didn’t feel impossible. Even now, the thought of the markets smelling of Mirabelle in late summer makes me smile. We all know how much I love Mirabelle.

I spent only one day there during that first visit, but I remember it for one reason more than any other: laughter. I had never laughed so hard in my life. It was just one afternoon, but it stayed with me. There was something about the people there, the lightness they carried, that made me think Metz could easily become home.

When I returned recently, this time for a few days, I saw a different side of the city. Beyond its heart, the countryside unfolded in warm autumn colors. I wandered through places that carried the weight of war history, and I began to see how Metz shares many qualities with Strasbourg — the mix of beauty and resilience, the deep sense of place, the pull between cultures.

If I ever left Strasbourg, I could see myself there. Metz still feels like a quiet possibility, a place that continues to wait patiently in my memory, glowing softly like stained glass when the sun hits it just right.

A chapter I never wrote, but still return to in thought.

French Festivals You’ve Never Heard Of (But Should Experience)

France is a land of celebrations. Some are world famous, like Bastille Day in Paris or the Cannes Film Festival. Yet the heart of French culture beats strongest in the smaller, regional festivals that rarely make it onto international travel itineraries. These gatherings reveal traditions that have shaped communities for centuries, and they invite you to witness France not as a tourist, but as a guest welcomed into the rhythm of local life.

Here are ten festivals across France that carry the spirit of authenticity, from village apple presses to medieval parades.

1. Trévières Apple Festival – Normandy

In the small town of Trévières, the apple harvest is celebrated each October with pressing demonstrations, cider tastings, and stalls filled with regional products. It is not a spectacle for tourists but a moment of community pride. This festival captures the essence of rural Normandy, where food, tradition, and gathering intertwine.

2. Festival Médiéval – Bouliac (Nouvelle-Aquitaine)

Bouliac’s medieval festival feels like stepping into a village from centuries past. Costumed locals, crafts, and market stalls recreate a scene that is intimate and immersive. Far from the polished tourist shows, it is a celebration that belongs to the town itself, where visitors are welcome but not the focus.

3. Fêtes de Jaufré Rudel – Blaye (Nouvelle-Aquitaine)

Blaye honors its troubadour prince, Jaufré Rudel, with medieval music, poetry, and pageantry. This is not a festival that draws crowds from across France, but rather one that belongs to the locals who keep the memory of their poet alive. It is literature, music, and history woven into the streets of a riverside town.

4. Transhumance Festivals – Jura Mountains (Franche-Comté)

Each spring and autumn, herds of cows decorated with bells and flowers are led through Jura villages as they move to and from their high pastures. These transhumance celebrations are as old as the mountains themselves, rooted in the cycles of land and life. They are not staged for visitors but arise naturally from rural tradition. For travelers seeking authenticity, few moments feel as timeless.

5. Fête du Comté – Poligny (Jura)

Poligny, the capital of Comté cheese, gathers producers, cheesemakers, and locals each September to celebrate this cornerstone of Jura gastronomy. While it is better known regionally, it has not yet turned into a crowded spectacle. Visitors will find themselves in the heart of a cheese-loving community proud to share their heritage.

6. Fête du Fromage – Savoie (Auvergne-Rhône-Alpes)

In Savoie, cheese is more than food, it is identity. The Fête du Fromage brings producers together for tastings, competitions, and markets. This one is known among French food enthusiasts and mountain travelers, so expect larger crowds than some of the other festivals on this list. Still, it remains rooted in its alpine traditions and offers a chance to connect directly with the culture of terroir.

7. Grand Pardon – Chaumont (Haute-Marne)

I had the privilege of experiencing this one myself. The Grand Pardon in Chaumont is a centuries-old Catholic procession that honors Saint John the Baptist. It is deeply spiritual, with processions winding through the streets and locals gathering in reverence. While little known to outsiders, it holds great meaning for the community. To witness it is to glimpse the soul of France’s living faith traditions.

8. Festival des Forêts – Compiègne (Hauts-de-France)

Music drifts through the forest in Compiègne each summer during the Festival des Forêts. Concerts take place among the trees, where classical and contemporary works meet the silence of nature. It is not a large festival, and it is better known within French cultural circles than among international travelers. For those who seek a blend of art, nature, and reflection, it offers something quietly profound.

9. Pfifferdaj – Ribeauvillé (Alsace)

The oldest medieval festival in Alsace, dating back to 1390, Pfifferdaj transforms Ribeauvillé into a living tableau of history. Thousands gather to see pipers, costumed performers, and parades. This one is well known across Alsace and draws significant crowds, but it remains tied to the region’s medieval heritage rather than commercial tourism. It is worth experiencing at least once for the way it connects modern Alsatians to their past.

10. Les Géants – Lille (Hauts-de-France)

Towering papier-mâché giants parade through the streets of Lille, a tradition recognized by UNESCO as intangible cultural heritage. This festival is famous in northern France and increasingly recognized beyond, but it is still very much a celebration by and for the people of Lille. The giants tell stories of community, folklore, and memory, and to see them march is to feel the weight of history carried with joy.

France does not reveal itself only through its monuments or museums. It reveals itself in these festivals, where community, tradition, and joy gather in streets, fields, and forests. Some are tiny, known only to villagers, while others have grown into regional spectacles. Together they offer a map to the authentic heart of France.

For those who wish to travel deeply and meaningfully, following these festivals is a way to join in the living culture of a nation that celebrates not just its past, but its enduring spirit.

Besançon: The Quiet Flame That Almost Called Me Home

A love letter to a city that shaped my path, even though I didn’t stay.

In 2014, when I stepped into France for the first time. I didn’t know then that the country would one day become my second skin, but something stirred even then. And one of the first places to hold me in that early wonder was Besançon.

Tucked between green hills and quiet rivers, circled by a citadel that felt more like a guardian than a monument, Besançon wasn’t flashy. It didn’t need to be. It had history in its bones, thoughtfulness in its air, and a pulse that felt steady, like it had nothing to prove.

I remember the streets, soft and worn with time, curving through the city like whispered invitations. There were festivals alive with color, cafés filled with students and locals, and layers of importance buried beneath the surface—Roman roots, watchmakers, revolutionaries. This wasn’t a town dressed up for tourists. It was a city living its own truth.

There was something deeply grounding about it. Maybe it was the presence of the mountains, watching from a distance. Or the embrace of the river Doubs, looping calmly around the heart of the town. I’ve always been drawn to places where water and land meet with quiet reverence, where nature and history wrap around each other like old friends. Besançon had that.

And yet… it didn’t become my home.

Later that same trip, I visited Alsace. Not Strasbourg yet, but the villages. And something flickered again. A different kind of magic. A different kind of story waiting.

When it came time to choose a home in France, I thought long and hard about Besançon. I nearly said yes. But Strasbourg offered something I couldn’t ignore, connection. To other countries, to the world. A rhythm that matched my work and my wanderlust. A place that still had rivers and mountains, but also an open door to everywhere else.

Still, I think of Besançon often. The way you think of a first love, not with regret, but with tenderness. It was the first place that showed me I could belong somewhere in France. That there was space for me here. And I carry that gift with me still.

Some cities give you a future.

Others give you the courage to imagine one.

Besançon was that kind of city.

Laïcité: What It Is, What It Isn’t, and Why It Surprised Me

Being in France has taught me many things—how to slow down, how to savor a moment, how to pronounce rillettes without embarrassing myself—but one of the deeper cultural lessons I’m still wrapping my head around is laïcité.

At first glance, laïcité might seem like France’s version of the American separation of church and state. And sure, in theory, they’re cousins. But in practice, they couldn’t be more different.

In the U.S., we often talk about “freedom of religion”—the right to practice any faith, or none at all. But religion still lives loudly in public life. It's printed on our money, echoed in campaign speeches, woven into our court proceedings. In many places, it’s not unusual for prayer to open a school board meeting or for politicians to wear their faith like a badge.

France, on the other hand, leans more toward what you might call freedom from religion—at least in public life. That doesn’t mean you can’t believe. Quite the opposite. In France, you're completely free to follow any religion you choose—or to follow none at all. What’s different is that no religion can be imposed on you, especially in spaces run by the state. Public life is meant to be completely neutral—a space where everyone can show up as just a citizen, without any religious marker taking center stage.

It’s not anti-religion. It’s anti-imposition.

That distinction runs deep. In French public schools, for example, students and teachers are not allowed to wear visible religious symbols. It’s not just Muslim students who can’t wear a hijab. Christian students can’t wear a big cross. Jewish students can’t wear a yarmulke. The goal—at least in theory—is to protect the shared civic space from religious pressure, influence, or division. The public sphere, in this sense, is treated as a common good that must remain unmarked by belief.

This applies beyond schools, too. In France, when public officials take office, there’s no swearing in on a Bible—or on any religious text. It’s a civil ceremony, a civic commitment, not a religious one. The same goes for courtrooms. Witnesses are asked to swear to tell the truth, but not on a holy book. There’s no “so help me God” at the end of the oath. The idea is that justice, like governance, must remain secular—accessible and fair for everyone, regardless of belief.

And yet, France remains a deeply cultural place—and that includes religion. Many of the national holidays are rooted in the Catholic calendar: Christmas, Easter Monday, Ascension, All Saints’ Day. They’re observed nationwide, regardless of whether you’re practicing Catholicism, another religion, or none at all. The irony isn’t lost on anyone: the country that guards its secularism so fiercely still gives you time off for saints' days.

But maybe that’s just France in a nutshell—contradictory, layered, complex. A place where tradition and modernity constantly collide and rearrange themselves.

It’s also one of the reasons I find it so fascinating to live here.

France is home to the largest populations of both Jews and Muslims in Europe. And while laïcité aims to keep religion out of the public sphere, that hasn’t erased the deep cultural presence of these communities. For someone like me, who’s curious about the way belief shapes identity, history, and daily life, it’s actually created a beautiful space to explore. I’ve found myself learning more about Jewish traditions, listening to Muslim calls to prayer in certain neighborhoods, and having conversations with people who practice quietly, privately, but with profound conviction.

And here’s a small but memorable example of the culture clash I’ve felt: in the U.S., or even when traveling abroad with Americans, people will often bow their heads and pray aloud before a meal—at home, at restaurants, anywhere—without really checking if everyone at the table is comfortable with that. It’s assumed. Expected, even. I’ve always felt a little uneasy in those moments, as if someone else’s belief system is being draped over the entire table. But the first time that happened here in France—when a group of visiting Americans bowed their heads and prayed out loud at a restaurant—I nearly died of discomfort. Not just for myself, but for the people around us. For the waiter, who paused awkwardly. For the French diners, who visibly tensed. In that moment, I understood viscerally how different the relationship between religion and public space is here. It’s not about suppressing belief. It’s about protecting a shared social space where no one belief dominates or assumes itself as the default.

Another thing I’ve noticed: there’s no culture of evangelism here. No one approaches you on the street to ask if you’ve found salvation. No one strikes up casual conversation with the intent of steering it toward their religion. That kind of thing would be considered wildly inappropriate in France. It’s not because people aren’t spiritual—but because belief is seen as deeply personal, and no one has the right to impose theirs on someone else.

Coming from the U.S., where these encounters are almost normalized—especially in certain regions or subcultures—it’s honestly a relief. There’s a quiet respect here for each person’s internal world. You’re not expected to defend it, explain it, or share it. You’re just allowed to have it. Or not. And that permission, that privacy, creates space for curiosity. For growth. For personal, meaningful exploration that isn’t entangled in performance or persuasion.

I’ll admit, it took me a while to understand this approach. As someone raised in a culture that often celebrates pluralism by displaying it—where interfaith dialogue is on public display, and religion in politics is almost expected—France’s quiet, almost stoic neutrality felt strange at first. But it comes from a deep-rooted history: centuries of religious wars, monarchy-church entanglement, revolution, and eventually, a collective decision that peace required a clean line between faith and the Republic.

Laïcité isn’t always easy to apply. And it hasn’t always been applied fairly. But its intention, at least in its purest form, is equality. One rule for everyone. The state doesn’t care what god you worship, or if you worship at all. But when you step into a government space, a classroom, or a courtroom, you leave religion at the door—not because it’s shameful, but because it’s personal.

There’s something oddly freeing about that. Because in a place where belief isn’t constantly debated or politicized, you get to explore it on your own terms. Quietly. Freely.

Of course, neither the French nor the American approach is perfect. They both come with challenges. But living between these two worlds has made me realize that freedom can look very different depending on where you stand. And maybe that’s okay.

Maybe the most important thing is that we each remain free to question, to believe, to doubt, and to grow—and that no one gets to decide that path for us.

This Is How I Come Back To Life

In Bloom: A Quiet Return to Myself 

There are seasons that pass outside of us and seasons that unfold within us. This spring, I find myself living in both.

After a long, heavy winter—one not just of weather, but of weight—I’ve started to feel something stir. Not all at once, and not with fanfare. But softly. Slowly. As if the quiet corners of my soul have begun to stretch again. And oddly enough, it wasn’t some grand epiphany that brought me here. It was a series of small, beautiful things—moments I might’ve missed if I hadn’t slowed down enough to notice them.

Back in Strasbourg, I’ve begun walking with no real agenda. No itinerary, no expectation. Just presence. And in that space, beauty found me.

I saw it in the blooming trees lining empty streets, their petals falling like soft confetti in the wind. In the tulips erupting in vivid color at the park, where the sound of children’s laughter mixed with the rhythm of fountains splashing. I found it in the silence of a stork’s nest high above the tree line—a moment I’ve waited years to witness, and one that arrived not with a spotlight, but with patience.

And maybe that’s the lesson. Maybe some things come only when we’re ready to receive them. Maybe this is how life teaches us to listen again.

These days, my camera has become more than just a tool for documentation. It’s a way of learning to see again—really see. Not for the sake of content or productivity, but for the quiet whisper of truth that lives in overlooked things. A shadow across a canal. A splash of golden light at dusk. The first wisteria buds pressing out into the world as if unsure whether it’s safe to bloom. I know that feeling. I’ve lived it.

There’s something beautifully defiant about spring. It doesn’t ask permission to grow. It simply does. Whether anyone’s watching or not.

I’ve spent the last few weeks trying to move like that—gently, with intention, grounded in the small overlooked moments of each day. I haven’t written much, because truthfully, I haven’t had much to say. Not in the big, public way I’ve grown used to. But I’ve started to understand that it’s okay to pause. To go quiet. To let yourself lie dormant for a while. There’s wisdom in waiting. There’s healing in hibernation. 

And when you’re ready, the world will wait for you to bloom again.

This return to Strasbourg feels different than those before. Less like a reset, more like a re-rooting. I feel myself growing toward the light, even if I’m not yet sure what shape that will take. There’s comfort in not knowing. In learning to trust the process, the seasons, the self.

I share these photos not to impress, but to remember. These are the small anchors of joy that pulled me gently back toward myself. They remind me that life doesn’t always ask for big moves. Sometimes, it just asks you to show up—to notice. To soften. To begin again, in the quietest way possible.

Spring doesn’t arrive all at once. Neither do we.

As a final note…

I know the world feels heavy for many right now. It can feel strange—even selfish—to notice beauty while so much is unraveling. But I’ve come to believe that finding peace in small, quiet things isn’t a betrayal of the world’s suffering—it’s a way to survive it. A way to remember what’s worth protecting. If you’re in a season of uncertainty, grief, or exhaustion, I hope you still find something—however small—that allows your own buds to bloom. Even in a storm, we’re allowed to lean toward the light.

The Sea Still Speaks: Lessons from the Shores of Normandy

Normandy: A Landscape of Memory and Defiance

As a travel professional, I’ve stood in many places shaped by history—but few have arrested my spirit the way Normandy did. Walking along the wind-brushed shores and staring up at the cliffs at Pointe du Hoc, I wasn’t simply a visitor; I was a witness. A witness to what humanity is capable of—both in destruction and in the unwavering pursuit of freedom.

Standing in the craters left by artillery, large enough to swallow me whole, I felt the weight of sacrifice in my bones. I wasn’t there to reenact or romanticize. I was there to listen—to the silence, to the wind, to the faint echo of a generation that ran headfirst into death because they believed in something larger than themselves. The idea of freedom. The idea of shared humanity. The idea that evil can and must be stopped, even when it costs everything.

But this trip was more than reflection. It was resistance.

A Moment at the Cliffs

When I arrived at the cliffs where those soldiers had once climbed, I didn’t expect it to hit me so hard. I had seen the photos. I had read the history. But standing there—wind whipping at my coat, the sound of crashing waves below—it was like the ghosts themselves had gathered to remind me what courage looks like. Real courage. Not the kind that posts slogans online or argues in the safety of hindsight, but the kind that climbs a cliff under relentless fire, knowing full well it may be your last act on earth.

I sat there for an hour. I watched the sky, listened to the sea, and imagined the battle unfolding—men climbing, one after another, some falling before they ever reached the top, and the man behind them still climbing. What drives a person to do that? To face that level of horror and keep going?

I’ve always considered myself a pacifist. I’ve always leaned toward peace. But that day, something shifted in me. I realized that their sacrifice wasn’t about glorifying war—it was about choosing to stand for something when the world was falling apart. I began to ask myself: Would I be willing to give everything to protect the vulnerable? Would I climb the cliff for someone else’s freedom?

And then the bigger questions came. Do I really believe in freedom—not just for myself, but for others? Am I willing to stand for it when it’s not easy, when the cost is high? Do I stand against oppression only when it's far away, or do I hold my ground when it moves into my own neighborhood? 

There’s no longer room for apathy. To choose silence is to surrender. And surrender doesn’t guarantee safety—it simply delays the moment when the fire reaches your doorstep. The cliffs of Normandy reminded me that the torch of courage must be carried forward—not just for the memory of the past, but for the promise of the future.

Normandy is a sacred space, and yet, the world it helped build is under siege—not by bombs, but by apathy. By division. By the steady unraveling of the very values those soldiers died defending. As I moved from one site to the next—from Omaha Beach to the American Cemetery to the lesser-known corners where memory still clings like sea mist—I couldn’t shake a single question:

What have we done with their sacrifice?

Scattered across the land, British, American, Canadian, and French cemeteries tell a quiet story of alliance—a reminder that they fought and fell together beneath the banner of freedom.  It was internationalism in its purest form. No borders, no flags more important than the mission. And now, watching the United States turn its back on those long-standing partnerships—on the very unity that brought the world back from the brink—feels like a betrayal carved into history. I found myself mourning not just the past, but the future we’re letting slip away.

This wasn’t my first time facing grief through travel. But it may have been the first time I truly understood how a place can become defiance. Normandy, for all its calm and quiet, roared with a message: Remember. Resist.

I carry that with me now. In a world unraveling at the seams, where ideology divides neighbors and power is bartered in fear, I find myself returning to those cliffs. To the footsteps of those who knew they might not make it, but went anyway. And I ask myself: Am I doing enough with the freedom they died for? Am I holding the line—not with a weapon, but with courage, compassion, and clarity?

In my line of work, I often speak about meaningful travel. Normandy is not a destination to simply be “seen.” It’s a place that sees you. It holds a mirror to your values, your comfort, and your courage. And in doing so, it reminds us that we are still writing history—not with grand battles, but with everyday choices.

This is not just a travel story. This is a call to memory, to humanity, to action. We cannot forget what happened here. We cannot be silent while the world forgets itself. Not while the tide still reaches the shore that once ran red with the price of our privilege. 

A Traveler’s Dilemma: Sharing Beauty in a World on Fire

Reconciling Privilege: Writing My Way Through

When I began writing this blog, it was on the advice of my therapist. At the time, I was drowning in grief and struggling to find meaning. She encouraged me to focus on beauty, to document the moments of joy I encountered, no matter how fleeting, as a way to remind myself that life still had something to offer. What started as a lifeline has grown into something much larger—a way to connect not only with myself but with the world around me.

Yet lately, I’ve found myself questioning whether I should even share these stories. Does posting about sunsets and far-off places feel tone-deaf in a world so visibly hurting? Is sharing my joy unintentionally dismissing the struggles of others? These are questions I’ve wrestled with, not just in my writing but in how I navigate the privilege of my life.

My therapist reminded me of something crucial: writing doesn’t just document joy—it creates space for it, even in the darkest times. It’s not about ignoring the pain of the world but about finding and sharing the moments that make it bearable. These stories of beauty, kindness, and connection are not about bragging; they are acts of resistance against despair. They remind me—and maybe others—that there’s still light to be found.

And light, for me, has often come from the people I’ve connected with around the globe. Since returning to the U.S., I’ve been overwhelmed by the love and support I’ve received from friends abroad. They’ve sent messages of encouragement, shared ways to organize and act, and reminded me that we not alone in this struggle. Their words have felt like lifelines, bridging the gap between where I am and where I want to be. Knowing that people thousands of miles away care about what happens here has given me a sense of belonging I never expected.

These connections have also given me hope. Many of these friends have faced their own struggles, in systems and circumstances as broken as ours, and yet they’ve managed to rise above them with courage and resilience. Their stories remind me of why I started this blog in the first place—not just to document the beauty of travel but to share the humanity within it. To write is to resist—to resist the cynicism, the apathy, and the overwhelming sense of helplessness that threatens to consume us.

The Weight of Writing in Difficult Times

Lately, I’ve found it harder to write. I sit with my thoughts, searching for inspiration, but it feels like it’s hiding beneath the weight of everything happening around me. Even when I encounter something beautiful— a vivid sunset, a kind gesture, a moment of calm— I hesitate to share it. My heart is heavy with guilt, knowing I have the ability to escape while so many I care about are left to face struggles they never chose.

This guilt doesn’t come from a lack of gratitude. I know how fortunate I am to have had the opportunity to explore the world, to find moments of peace in places where I can simply breathe. But that knowledge doesn’t make it easier to reconcile the privilege of escape with the reality others endure daily. My words feel fragile in comparison to their battles, my photographs too fleeting to capture the depth of what so many are going through.

As I navigate this tension, I’ve been thinking about how my writing and photography may shift in the months ahead. I may begin documenting injustices I see and writing about the difficult truths that need to be heard. This isn’t to add darkness to my readers’ lives but to keep the truth known, to contribute in some small way to the collective call for justice and change. I may even start a separate blog for these stories, one that allows me to explore this side of myself more deeply. Still, I want to ensure that this new direction doesn’t drown out the light and inspiration my other writings strive to offer. Both are necessary—the truth and the beauty—and I feel called to honor them both.

Yet, in those rare moments when I do find the courage to write, I remind myself why I started. Beauty, after all, is not a denial of pain—it is a counterweight. Sharing it doesn’t erase the world’s struggles but reminds us that even in the darkest times, there are things worth holding onto. Writing has always been my way of navigating life’s complexities, and maybe now, it’s more important than ever. Resistance is not futile.

Owning My Place: Trusting Myself to Lead

 Owning My Journey: The Transformation of an Expert

When I left the U.S., I didn’t know what I was walking toward, but I knew what I was leaving behind: a version of myself that often doubted her value. The past year has been a transformative journey, not only geographically but within my own identity. Developing my blog and sharing my photography has opened a door I never knew existed—the door to vulnerability. I’ve learned that through vulnerability, I’ve been able to connect authentically, not only with others but with myself.

Trusting Myself: The Journey of Becoming an Expert

Travel has always been my greatest teacher. In the past, I thought my value as a guide was in how well I could follow a script—hitting the expected landmarks, ticking boxes for others to show them the France they thought they wanted to see. But stepping away from the familiar, immersing myself in my passions, and embracing my perspective has allowed me to see travel in an entirely new light.

It’s in the trust I’ve started to see from my clients that I feel the most gratitude. A family who came to me expecting a typical city tour of Paris ended up exploring rural villages, learning how to bake treats with a local family, and sitting down for a communal farm-to-table meal with neighbors eager to share stories. A solo traveler with a list of “must-see” sights found themselves volunteering in a vineyard, dining with a family excited to share their farming traditions, and connecting with locals in ways they never expected.

These moments, where travelers go from tourists to participants, have validated my belief in the kind of travel I want to guide. It’s not about crafting the perfect itinerary; it’s about creating room for serendipity, for human connection, and for the beauty of the unexpected.

Owning My Expertise 

I used to shy away from calling myself an “expert,” fearing it sounded pretentious or self-important. But as Montaigne once wrote, “The greatest thing in the world is to know how to belong to oneself.” Over the past decade, I’ve come to understand that owning my experiences—my failures, my growth, my unique perspective—isn’t arrogance; it’s authenticity. Like Montaigne, I see life as a journey of discovery, shaped by the wisdom we accumulate through observation, reflection, and connection.

Being an expert isn’t just about knowing a place; it’s about understanding how to bridge the gap between a traveler and the soul of a destination. It’s in crafting experiences that go beyond the surface, where tourists become participants in local life, where a meal becomes a story, and where a quiet village becomes a portal to understanding. This philosophy of immersion mirrors Montaigne’s ethos—an insistence on seeking depth, finding meaning, and embracing the messy beauty of discovery.

Recently, a traveler approached me with dreams of visiting Paris, captivated by the allure of all things French. I smiled and replied, ‘Paris is lovely, but it’s not France. I can show you Paris, and then I can show you France.

Paris is a city of undeniable beauty and complexity—a world within a world. It’s a place where languages intertwine, where French blends with Arabic, English, and countless other tongues. The city is shaped by the ebb and flow of global influences, a tapestry woven with threads of colonial history, migration, and international exchange. Parisians may not like to admit it, but much of what makes Paris so vibrant comes from far beyond France’s borders.

You’ll stand before Napoleon’s grand arches and columns while savoring flavors inspired by North Africa or the Middle East, enjoying dishes that feel quintessentially Parisian but aren’t traditionally French. In the same afternoon, you’ll wander through lush green parks nestled beside bustling train stations, a mix of serene escape and urban chaos. And when you visit the city’s famed museums, you’ll be in awe of the art and artifacts—but they often tell a broader story. Paris’s grandeur has been enriched by colonial history, with treasures and exhibits from Egypt, Baghdad, and beyond.

That’s Paris: a city of contrasts, a microcosm of the world, an international stage. It’s enchanting, but it’s only one piece of France. To truly understand the country, you have to step outside Paris and into the rolling landscapes of the terroir, where the traditions of small towns and villages speak a quieter, more intimate language. It’s there you find the heart of France—the farmers who coax life from the soil, the artisans preserving centuries-old crafts, the meals shared not in haste but in reverence for the moment.

Crafting this traveler’s journey was an invitation to explore those contrasts, to embrace Paris for her complexities while also revealing the France that lives beyond her borders. Witnessing their wonder as they discovered both sides of this beautiful country reminded me why I love sharing my authentic vision of travel—one that celebrates the full spectrum of what a place has to offer.

Moving Forward with Gratitude

The trust my clients place in me continues to humble me. Each time someone says, “We trust you,” I feel a sense of responsibility, not just to deliver an experience but to provide something deeper—an understanding of a place, its people, its culture, and the beauty that lives in its corners.

For years, the universe handed me opportunities, but I didn’t always know how to channel them. Now, I see a path forward—one rooted in authenticity, connection, and intention. I don’t just want to guide travelers to famous landmarks; I want to invite them into the quiet moments that make them stop and feel alive.

This past year has taught me to own my story, my skills, and my unique way of seeing the world. For the first time, I’m not afraid to call myself an expert—not because I know everything, but because I’m committed to learning, growing, and creating meaningful experiences. It’s not just travel—it’s transformation.

In 2025, I’m embarking on a new chapter of exploration, one that takes me to the western side of France. This journey feels like a continuation of the authentic connections I’ve built, but also a chance to expand my understanding of this diverse country. While I plan to visit a few iconic sites to appreciate their unique histories, my heart is drawn to the smaller towns and lesser-known places. Among these explorations, I’ll visit regions where my ancestors, like Michel de Montaigne, lived and thrived. Walking in their footsteps, I hope to feel the resonance of their lives and ideas, connecting my personal journey with the lineage of those who came before me. Each step into these untraveled paths feels like both an adventure and a homecoming, a reminder that the soul of travel often lies in the unlikeliest of places.

Home Is Where the Disconnect Is: Lessons After Returning from Strasbourg

The Noise of Returning 

Coming back felt like stepping into a storm I wasn’t prepared for. The world here is so loud—machines hum, conversations blare, and the news never stops. I walked into a grocery store, overwhelmed by shelves brimming with too much, and retreated to the vegetable aisle, hoping to find a quiet corner. Even driving feels foreign now—my hands grip the wheel tighter, my nerves fray. Nothing feels gentle. Nothing feels like home.

One adjustment has been particularly difficult: throwing everything into a single trash bin. In Strasbourg, sorting waste and composting were everyday acts that made sense, a way of living that honored the earth. Here, it feels like regression. Why aren’t we composting food scraps? Why does convenience trump care for the planet? It’s not just about the act of throwing things away—it’s the metaphorical weight of undoing habits that once aligned with my values.

The Ache of Isolation
The hardest part isn’t the noise or the pace; it’s the silence. In France, I was surrounded by connection—friends who checked in daily, strangers who became companions, and moments that made me feel part of something greater. Here, the silence is suffocating. Days pass without messages. Conversations are short and transactional. It’s not that people don’t care, but life here leaves little room for the kind of connection I now crave.

I try walking, hoping to find solace in the familiar, but the few sidewalks that exist lead me nowhere. I sit with my thoughts, but they press down heavily, filling the quiet with echoes of disconnection. How do you belong to a place that no longer fits the shape of who you’ve become?

Gratitude Amid the Noise 

And yet, even here, there are moments of calm that anchor me. Time with my grandmother has been a gift—her laughter, her stories, the way she reminds me of what matters most. I’ve watched the leaves change, their colors painting the days with beauty I can’t ignore. Gratitude whispers to me in these moments, reminding me that even in discomfort, there is something to hold onto.

But gratitude doesn’t erase the ache. It doesn’t quiet the questions that swirl in my mind late at night: How do I move forward here? How do I bridge the gap between who I was and who I’ve become?

The Weight of the World
Election season has cast a shadow over everything, a relentless cycle of impending doom that fills every screen, every conversation. I left the U.S. to escape the storm, but it followed me. Election night left me wearing a heart monitor, the stress carving its way into my body. Now, being back, the air feels heavier. It’s not just the politics—it’s the unspoken weight of knowing I don’t belong. Here, I have to temper myself, hiding parts of who I am to navigate a world that feels increasingly hostile. It’s a kind of exile, even in the place I once called home.

Questions Without Answers
Strasbourg gave me a mantra: live every moment. Here, I count the hours until it’s late enough to sleep, just to wake up one day closer to leaving. I know I’ll return to the life that feels right for me, but for now, I’m here, learning to navigate the in-between.

Have you ever felt this dissonance—the ache of returning to a life that no longer fits? How did you find peace in the in-between? I don’t have the answers yet, but perhaps the questions themselves are enough. For now, I’m holding onto the threads of gratitude, trying to weave them into something that feels like home.

Moving Forward 

This weekend, I pulled myself out of the haze, checking tasks off my list, planning ways to explore the city with new eyes. There’s still beauty here, I remind myself, even if it feels harder to find. I’m trying to live with intention again, to reconnect with the lessons I learned abroad.

The journey back has been anything but easy, but it’s a reminder that growth doesn’t end with distance. Sometimes, it’s in the dissonance, in the struggle to reconcile who you were with who you’ve become, that you find the deepest truths.

A Farewell to Strasbourg: Reflections on a Season of Transformation

The streets of Strasbourg feel different now. As the calendar inches toward my departure, I walk with a kind of reverence, savoring each cobblestone underfoot. The rhythm of the city has imprinted itself on me, becoming a pulse I’ve unconsciously matched over the months. Leaving—even temporarily—feels like loosening the grip on something sacred, something that has quietly shaped me in ways I didn’t know I needed.

This city became my sanctuary. Its riverbanks and cathedral spires were more than just scenery—they were witnesses to my journey. Strasbourg caught me at a time when I was unraveling, and instead of demanding anything from me, it gave me space to rebuild. It let me wander its streets with my thoughts, lose myself in its corners, and find myself in its stillness.

The Spirit of Connection

Strasbourg has a way of bringing people together. It’s in the small moments—the nod from a baker handing you a freshly baked baguette, the smile of a stranger as you pass on the bridge, the casual conversations that lead to something deeper.

This city taught me the value of connection, not through grand gestures but through the quiet consistency of community. My friends here became family, offering support and care that carried me through difficult days. They showed me what it feels like to belong—not through obligation, but through shared time and mutual respect. It’s these bonds, formed in a city that so easily opens its arms, that I will carry with me long after I leave.

A Space for Growth

Strasbourg also offered me solitude, a rare and precious thing. Here, I learned to sit with myself, to examine the parts of me that I’d been too afraid to face. Its quiet mornings gave me clarity, its winding alleys held my secrets, and its golden sunsets reminded me to find beauty even in endings. The city became a mirror, reflecting back not just who I was, but who I could become.

One of my favorite routines was sitting along the river with a book, watching the city come alive in the soft glow of the setting sun. Those moments weren’t just peaceful—they were transformative. They reminded me that healing doesn’t always come in breakthroughs. Sometimes, it’s in the steady rhythm of days, in the comfort of familiarity, and in the courage to keep showing up for yourself.

Gratitude for the Ordinary

As I reflect on my time here, it’s the ordinary moments that stand out. Walking through the Orangerie Park on crisp autumn mornings, sharing meals with friends over laughter and wine, or listening to the echo of the cathedral bells as they called the city to attention. These are the moments that stitched together my time in Strasbourg, creating a tapestry of memories that feel both fleeting and eternal.

I will never forget how this city allowed me to pause and just be. For a traveler who’s always searching for the next adventure, Strasbourg was the one place where I felt at peace staying still. It became more than a destination—it became a home.

Moving Forward

Tomorrow, I’ll say goodbye to Strasbourg, at least for a while. The thought fills me with a bittersweet ache. I know I’ll return, but this chapter, with its quiet beauty and profound lessons, will never come again. Yet, as I prepare to leave, I carry something intangible but powerful: the understanding that even in letting go, there’s growth. Even in leaving, there’s gratitude.

This city has given me a gift that no suitcase can hold—a deeper understanding of myself and the world. Strasbourg will always be here, but the person I’ve become because of it will go forward, seeking the same kind of connection, growth, and peace it so freely gave me. For that, I am forever thankful. 

Life Through My Lens

Life Through My Lens: Capturing the World from the Outside In

Photography is more than just art to me; it’s a quiet dialogue with life, spoken in light, color, and contrast. It’s an invitation to see without needing to be seen. I’m drawn to its spontaneity—no intricate setup or grand design, just moments as they unfold. I still search for my style, perhaps never wanting to pin it down, allowing discovery itself to become the art.

Each photograph I take feels like a step in a story only partly told. My favorite images capture beauty that feels borrowed—a landscape or a fleeting expression I couldn’t recreate even if I tried. In this sense, my photographs hold pieces of my journey, even as I remain outside the frame. They are memories of unspoken stories, of hidden treasures that reveal who I am without the need for words. Each scene is a reminder that life’s beauty is often best observed, cherished quietly, and left as it was found.

The Freedom of Being Unseen

In a world that celebrates visibility, standing behind the camera feels like home. There’s comfort in observing rather than being observed. Much of my life, I’ve been a witness rather than the subject. Through the lens, I find peace and belonging, glimpsing a world that moves to its own quiet rhythms. I seek beauty in the details—the forgotten corners of architecture, the play of shadows on stone, the edges of nature where color fades to dusk. Alsace, with its textures, colors, and deep-rooted charm, pulls me in, and through my lens, I can share what captivates me without having to be part of the scene.

A Practice in Presence

Photography, to me, is more than documenting scenes; it’s a practice in stillness. It invites me to pause, to disconnect from the rush, and connect with what is. It’s not just about capturing; it’s about noticing, about learning to see without expectation. I have no rigid process, just the instinct to press pause, allowing each image to unfold as it may. It’s a way of finding peace, a brief rest in the journey of self-discovery, where I can set aside expectation and simply exist in a moment.

To those who know me, I am the observer, the one who finds beauty where others might pass by. My photos speak of who I am in ways I cannot, showing a world that’s not always obvious but, to me, is endlessly alive. Each image is an expression, a reflection of the quiet understanding I’ve come to cherish: that life’s beauty doesn’t demand attention—it simply waits to be noticed.

Chasing the Light: My Lifelong Love Affair with Sunsets

The Eternal Sunset: A Journey Through Time and Freedom 

From the time I was young, the sunset has represented something more to me than just the end of the day—it symbolized freedom, the kind I didn’t have growing up in group homes and foster homes. As a teenager, there were moments when I would stare at the sky, longing for the beauty of a sunset I couldn’t see. The sun’s descent beyond the horizon became my promise to myself: one day, I will be free. Free to watch the sky transform into something extraordinary, day after day.

I found that freedom when I turned 18 in 1999. Every day since, I sought the beauty of the sunset, always keeping that promise to myself. But between 2018 and 2023, life weighed heavily on me. I entered a dark period filled with medical issues, trauma, and the overwhelming stress of the pandemic. In those years, I lost touch with my cherished ritual of watching the sun set, unsure of what the future held.

In 2023, I made a conscious decision to return to that grounding habit. I realized that in those moments, at the end of the day, the sunset was what anchored me, calmed me, and brought joy to my heart, even if only for a short time. No matter where I was in the world, I found a place to witness the sky’s final act of the day, and I promised myself never to let go of that again. If I happen to miss a sunset I feel a sense of emptiness that day. 

Now, whenever people see a sunset, they think of me. I’ve become the sunset girl to those who know me best. Friends and acquaintances send me photos of their sunsets, a small gesture to say I see you, I’m thinking of you. It’s the greatest compliment I could ever receive. For me, each sunset is a reminder of the beauty we so often miss in the rush of our daily lives. It’s a call to pause, to breathe, to take in the world as it is—before the sun disappears and the day fades into memory.

Existential Beauty in the Ephemeral

There’s something deeply existential about a sunset. It marks the end of a day, a chapter closing, yet it offers the most stunning display before it leaves us in darkness. It’s a reminder that endings aren’t inherently bad—they can be breathtaking. Sunsets teach me that life, like the sky, is full of colors we can only see when we take the time to stop and look.

No two sunsets are the same. Each is a masterpiece, fleeting and unique, much like the moments that make up our lives. Missing one could mean missing the most beautiful painting nature has to offer. I’ve watched many people walk by, oblivious to the beauty unfolding above them. But I can't let these moments slip by unnoticed. They ground me, bring me back to the present, and remind me that life’s most profound beauty often happens in the quiet moments when we’re still, when we’re paying attention.

Gratitude in the Stillness

For me, the sunset is more than just a visual spectacle. It’s a moment of gratitude. It’s a chance to reflect on the day, to release its worries, and to be present with the earth as it prepares to rest. I often think about how fragile life is, how tomorrow is never promised. Watching the sunset is my way of making peace with the day’s end, knowing that if I don’t wake up tomorrow, I’ve spent my last moments connected to something timeless, something beautiful.

I don’t chase sunrises in quite the same way—there’s something about the sunset that feels more natural, more in sync with the rhythm of my day. Maybe it’s because I’ve always associated it with closing chapters, with the hope that comes from making it through another day. The sunset is my time to breathe, to exist, to witness the final gift the day has to offer.

The Sky's Final Symphony

The sunset, in all its glory, is my constant. It’s the moment I look forward to every day, no matter where I am. It reminds me of the freedom I fought for, the beauty that exists in even the simplest things, and the peace that comes from just being present. Sunsets, to me, are more than a fleeting image in the sky—they are my reminder that no matter what happens each day, there is always beauty to be found in the end. It’s a beauty I will never take for granted.

Rushing Through the World: When Travel Becomes a Task

The Weight of Travel Fatigue: A Different Kind of Journey 

After a month of continuous travel, I find myself more than just physically tired—there’s a mental and emotional exhaustion that lingers. This trip wasn’t like any other I’ve experienced. For the first time, I wasn’t the lead guide. Instead, I found myself behind a different leader, adapting to a travel style that felt disconnected from my own values. Montaigne once said, “The greatest thing in the world is to know how to belong to oneself.” His words echo as I reflect on how travel, when it loses the element of connection, can feel hollow. What began as an exciting journey became a lesson in the importance of staying true to oneself.

A Fatiguing Experience: Adapting to Another’s Style

Following someone else’s itinerary, I quickly realized how much I cherish a slower, more immersive approach to travel. The tour leader’s style was rigid, focused on efficiency, ticking off as many sights as possible in a short time. Meals were pushed to late hours (food seemed like an afterthought most days), and we rushed from one destination to the next, leaving little time for meaningful exploration.

For years, I’ve embraced spontaneity and flexibility in travel, believing these qualities are what allow for genuine discovery. I guide with the idea that travel should leave room for the unexpected, for a place to reveal itself slowly. Montaigne often reminds us to “know oneself,” and through this experience, I became acutely aware of how deeply I value travel that fosters connection. Trying to fit into a rigid plan left me feeling not just physically tired but disconnected from the very places I longed to explore.

The Difference Between Seeing and Experiencing

It wasn’t just me who noticed this disconnection. Travelers expressed a similar sentiment—while they “saw a lot,” they didn’t feel like they truly experienced the essence of the places we visited. Luzern, Switzerland, was a prime example. We arrived, ate a quick meal, and immediately moved on, barely scraping the surface of what the city had to offer.

This hit me hard. As someone who believes that true travel comes from understanding a place’s heart, it was difficult to watch this rushed style unfold. Montaigne would likely have questioned the value of such an experience, emphasizing that wisdom comes from pausing to reflect. Moving too quickly through life, or through travel, can rob us of the lessons we might have absorbed had we allowed ourselves time to breathe. I found myself yearning for those moments of stillness—where a traveler can sit with a place, absorb its energy, and engage with its people and culture.

When Travel Feels Like a Task

For me, travel has always been a source of renewal, healing, and learning. It’s a deeply personal experience, and it usually brings me back to myself. But this trip felt different. Rather than sparking the usual sense of discovery, it felt like we were racing against time. What should have been a journey of immersion turned into a series of destinations checked off a list. We moved so fast that the joy of experiencing a place was replaced by a mechanical process, a task to complete.

For the first time, I found myself questioning the essence of my work. How could something that normally fills me with life feel so hollow? How could the act of guiding, which has always been about connection, leave me feeling so disconnected? This trip reminded me that travel, when done without intention, can lose its meaning. It’s not about how many places we visit—it’s about how deeply we engage with them. I don’t want to lead journeys that feel like tasks. I want to guide experiences that transform.

The Importance of Connection

When we arrived in France, I had the opportunity to take a more active role as a guide, and the difference was immediate. My approach is centered around connection—whether that’s through sharing a meal at a local restaurant, walking the streets of a village, or visiting a market. The travelers noticed the shift. They enjoyed the slower pace, the chance to interact with locals, and the opportunity to experience daily life, rather than just pass through it.

One of my favorite moments was exploring a local farmers’ market. It was a simple activity, yet profoundly meaningful. We discovered seasonal ingredients, spoke with local vendors, and shared stories about food traditions. For me, this is what travel should be—an immersion in the everyday life of a place. It’s not just about seeing landmarks, but about understanding the culture that breathes life into them.

Realizations About My Role

This trip has made me reexamine my role as a guide. The fast-paced, rigid style I encountered was a sharp contrast to the mindful, intentional travel I’ve always valued. It has helped me recognize that while there are many ways to travel, I am most aligned with a philosophy that prioritizes depth over distance, connection over speed.

Montaigne’s words come to mind again: “The soul that has no fixed purpose in life is lost; to be everywhere is to be nowhere.” Rushing through travel—or life—without truly experiencing it is a loss. I don’t want to guide travelers who simply pass through places; I want to lead those who wish to belong to the places they visit, even if only for a brief moment.

Moving Forward with Intention

As I prepare to return to Strasbourg, these lessons are more present than ever. Though this journey was exhausting, it has reaffirmed the importance of intentional travel. Montaigne reminds us that it’s not the quantity of places we visit that matters, but the quality of the time we spend there.

In the next chapter of my work, I’m choosing to guide journeys that foster connection—whether that’s with the landscape, the people, or ourselves. I want to leave my travelers with stories of meaningful encounters, not just photos of places they passed through. Travel should transform, and that transformation begins with intention.